Where I am
About 20 months ago, I walked out of my my old company, happy to be free at last from the drudgery of IT work, and off to do an MBA in the land Down Under. But here I am. Back at the very place I left, in a slightly higher role, responsible for managing 5 frustrated software engineers, a few of which are older than me too…but the same company all the same. Things have changed of course, the company’s CEO is attempting to turn things around and the company has an “Employees First” motto. On the day of joining, we were subjected to clips from a 3 hour DVD, with CEO spilling his guts to us. Lots of MBA-Speak, and I was left wondering if the software engineers in the group spotted it for what it was. There are DEFINITELY more women being hired. It almost looks like it’s a 50-50 ratio. They’ve even put up a matrimonials site on the Intranet. But many things haven’t changed. I joined the company on Thursday. Today is Tuesday. I don’t have a login id for my computer. I don’t have a company ID. I don’t have an employee code. Basically, here I am sitting at my desk, using ‘valuable’ company resources and time, typing out on a blog, because I can’t function in any constructive way at work. I can’t check my company mail, run any of the stuff I need to get my new job done. So here I am.
Lack-of-Blogging and Life-Goes-On
I stopped blogging for evolutionary reasons. Survival, and procreation had a lot to do with it. I had a friend-with-benefits, who also happened to be my birthday twin, although she was 2 years younger than me. (Un)Fortunately, she had a boyfriend, of 5 years. Whom she hadn’t left, while she was with me. (I knew about this from the beginning. It’s funny how men don’t mind being used…well in a particular way at least 🙂 )She made the mistake of telling him she was attracted to me. He got obsessed with me. So he looked me up on the web. And then he found a post titled “My Perfect Lover”, a meme of yore, where you mentioned 5 things about your perfect lover, and then tagged 5 people. It drove him to madness. I’ve deleted the SMSs now, but I recall something about being threatened with Vietnamese gangsters. Anyway, basically it came down a choice between blogging and getting laid….
I have been unable to get back into the groove lately. It was anger and frustration that used to drive me to blog. But I’m neither angry nor frustrated these days. I guess this is what happens as you reach the last few digits of your 20s. All sorts of other things start occupying your mind. Before I left for Australia, 20 months ago, my grandmother had passed away. She was the last of my grandparents, and so we said goodbye to the pre-partition generation of my immediate family. But with that tragedy also came the realisation that my parents are next. It’s not something one gives much thought too usually, but somehow, it’s more sharp to me considering the large age gap between me and my parents.
Where I’m Going
This is my 5th attempt at blogging again, and reviving some of the old glory. So being an MBA now, I shall elaborate with a bullet-pointed plan…..er…no…not really. I guess I’ll just start commenting more, and ranting like I used to… So although the world was TTG-free for a while, it shall be no longer…And so the world comes full circle. And somethings just don’t change 🙂